A Short Live, A Huge Impact

Chase should be celebrating his 18th Birthday today, finishing his Senior year of High School, driving, kissing girls, thinking about college and his future.

Yet he left us 3 years ago, 24 days before his 15th Birthday. 3 years. It feels like 3 months.

I can't describe what it's like to have a terminally ill child. You've either been there and know the experience, or you haven't. There's no in-between. It's 24/7 of keeping up with treatments and medication, and driving to specialists, checking port feeds in the middle of the night, and worrying about what could go wrong whenever you step out of the house on your own for a few hours.

But there's also a closeness that's reached from spending so much time together with deep conversations that otherwise wouldn't come up. Some conversations about what's after life that no one should ever have to have with their child.  

For the record, I do believe in an after life. I believe in God, and I believe that Jesus Christ is our Savior. For me, that stuff isn't made up or just something nice to believe in that brings me comfort.

I imagine Chase in the spirit world, finally able to do the things his body wouldn't allow him, happy, at peace, not hurting, and having a wonderful time with his brother and uncles. Who needs a driver's license when you can soar at lightspeed?

So Happy Birthday Chase. Enjoy this day and know that even though we miss you so hard it hurts, your life is being Celebrated.

Love you.

Mom






What Magical Wielder are you?

Just for fun...

CreepyPasta

My twelve year old is definitely a Millennial.  

He loves technology, understands, takes it apart and rewires it. After myself, my husband, and my two oldest boys have all tried to simply get the TV back onto the TV after watching Netflix here on the Wii, we must eventually call T down to fix it, which he does with a I-can't-believe-you-can't-do-this shake of his head and two seconds later it's done. Of course since he has rewired everything where only a Mage of the Thirteenth Level can figure it out, I'm thinking it's not because I'm too old to get it. He's even gone to his friend's house where their cable has been out for days and inspects their router and fixes the problem. His brain functioning in this is a little frightening. I only hope he learns to use his power for good.

Anyway, the gamer's ultimate game Minecraft is T's passion. He loves it. I've heard him explaining how to set things up in there with the exasperation of an old man. He has his own Minecraft server.

"What is a server?" I ask.

"So people can go to my server and play the game through my server even when I'm not there."

"And why is that important?"

"Ah, Mom. You just don't get it."


He's right. I don't get it at all. But I helped him get his server. He's thrilled with it and feels important.

Needless to say, he's on his server, playing Minecraft alot, leading his friends through the worlds as they play together through their headphones.

So hearing him talking in his headphones is a normal occurrence at our house. However, yesterday, the talking seemed different, less action, more monotone when I passed. So being the nosy-must-know-everything-that-my-kid-is-doing-on-the-Internet type Mom, I ducked my head in.

He was reading.

About four of his friends were all on CreepyPasta (at their own homes with headphones) taking turns reading these scary stories.

My son who doesn't like reading.
My son who has dyslexia.
My son was taking the lead, reading out loud to his friends who were all reading along together because "reading the stories alone is too scary". Like one of his friends could reach through the monitor and save him.

I'm thrilled. Yes, reading. I want my kids to have a love of reading! Does it matter that it is urban legend scare-your-pants-off stuff? No. Who doesn't like those? Am I ready to start thrusting books in T's face like Nightlife because if he likes Jeff the Killer, he'd love Slashback. Then again, I know I can't get too pushy, too let's-bond-over-this right this second, kay, kay?

So I closed the door, did a quiet knuckle-tap (which I know, yeah, yeah, fifty-year-olds aren't suppose to do--not cool) and am letting the bond-over-this opportunities come natural as I  leave my copies of Rob Thurman's book out in surreptitious locations. Oh that? It's just a book about monsters with sharp metal teeth who can open up doorways to other worlds... Kinda scary though.
 

Too Good to Be True

Too Good to Be TrueToo Good to Be True by Kristan Higgins
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Kristan Higgins walked up to the podium and exclaimed "Behold the Power of Spanks". Throughout her luncheon address, she was charming and hilarious and at one point even made me tear up. Of course after that I'm going to read her book. Not to mention there was a free one right there placed on my chair. Score!

I got a lot of free books at the conference but Too Good to Be True was the first one I wanted to read, and it was just as charming and hilarious as Kristan, and yes, at one point I teared up. Okay, maybe at two or three points.

I love this book and I love this writer.

There's a truckload of reviews on here so I won't bother to sum up the story, except to say, every time Grace struck Callahan with a lethal hockey stick or rake, it was the funniest thing ever. Then she backs up into his truck...wow.

He's an ex-con and she's a big fat liar and I love them both, felt so bad for Grace when it looked like things weren't going to work out. Sigh.

Now, even though I have a pile of books at my disposal, I'm kinda thinking of digging into another Kristan Higgins book.


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Flying in Arizona.

Okay, maybe not flying flying, but as close as you can get besides free-falling from an airplane.
My big sis Bekie has been skydiving for 30 plus years and as been on all sorts of teams and traveled the world to join in skydiving competitions. That's her below, the farthest to the right.

Bekie flying with her skydiving team

She's so in to skydiving that she moved to Arizona to be near the biggest hub of skydiving (since AZ has the best year round weather for it). She works as a pediatric nurse in Phoenix where she owns a condo, and then she bought a house 5 minutes from the airport in Eloy. 
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I've visited her before and did the wind tunnel about two years ago. Let's just say I was not that coordinated and the instructor didn't dare let go of me cuz...well, hello Plexiglas wall.

I thought it would be something the boys would really enjoy for a mini affordable vacation, plus get to spend time with my sister, so off we drove to Eloy in the hottest time of the year for Arizona. Yeah, the time most residents are scrambling to leave on take a milder vacation someplace else. 111 degrees outside? I defy you. Okay, maybe not. It was hot. Not gonna lie.

But timing, ya know. June was the only time all our schedules converged to give us time off.

And the guys loved LOVED the wind tunnel.
The boys were naturals at it.
Even I was pretty good the second time around. I could stabilize myself this time and not wing off out of control so that's something. 

And even Bekie took the opportunity to learn new tricks since she's not that great at flying on her back. This is her working on that skill below. 52 and looks great. 

Bekie in the Wind tunnel

Clover Autrey flying in the Wind Tunnel

 That's me above. I'm holding my own position without anyone holding me in place. I impressed myself.

Kyle flying in the wind tunnel

Kyle above, twisting and turning as though he's been doing it for years. Show off. And Tate's below looking like he's about to sprout wings.

Tate in the wind tunnel





Anyway, if you're out in Arizona between Tucson and Phoenix stop in at the wind tunnel at SkyVentureArizona   They were great.